i lik damn sian lor,lucky sch startin soon.bt i lik haven relax engh lor.anyway,my leg lik damn ugly lor,i juz fell down while climbin tat stupid wall,n it was meant 4 little children u noe,thght it was easy,yah rite.play majhong oso lose,damn suay.

n i think nex yrs burfdae party is kinda confirmed,my mom ald ordered n wants me 2 invite 12 ppl.juz came back frm mor mew yr shoppin oso.ahh feels gd 2 more mor new stuff.im on msn tlkin 2 aaron,so borin nobody else o9.duno where ntya gone.

exp date?1 n half mths,baby

karen n aaron,tsk tsk,,nvm.yah jerlyn tnx 4 the reminder,we oso washed toilets in the camp n they were lots of centipede,eww.n den we played spinnin game,yeah,it was fun,bt all gd things cum 2 an end.

tlkin 2 karen bout her n aaron n how far she shld go,sian lor,duno where is priya,i think in overc,duno leh.my dear mum saes i hav a sleepin disorder,crazy.n wants me 2 sleep by 11,crazy,no listenin 2 radio at nite,crazy,n wake up by 9 in the mornin,CRAZY.

n im so gettin fatter,evn thgh i stop throwin,i still feel i duno.i noe i shldnt compare,bt evrytime i compare ,i cnt stop lik,y does she deserve a father?y nt me?or y does he get such a nice gf ,i deserve better den...

the camp lik damn nice lor,im juz bck frm there.ok lets tlk bout ppl there.lol so many nice n decent guys nt those sicko ones lor. i met tis arthur,hes so nice! he claims hes a ex 'bad' guy,i blive lor,bt nt teng.hes lik in sec 4 nex yr,bt hes a norm tech.n den theres tis wayne ,hes p6,hes so shuai lor,n hes teng's di,so lucky lor.we gt 2 noe nixon(spellin correct?)hes frm our sch BB de,so cute n innocent.

thers gonna b tis BB BBq ,i dunno wen leh,gt x'mas party oso
frm TMC. aiyo..i gt alot 2 write de lor,now all 4gt liao.stupid damien.den hor,on last nite,no lights off,wa lau,we all stay till 3 am,wake up at 6am,wah party whole nite,shiok lor.go dragon boat oso.den played lots of dirty games ,lots of team bondin.went wit teng n jerlyn n jian hui,wa lau write more again,gtg liao.

lovebug

i want 2 sae sorry for tat last last post 2 jian kuo,didnt mean it.nv.

anyway i loved tat song ,just stand up,the lyrics r lik so meaningful bt.duno teng teng they all goin 2 camp nt,dun think so leh,duno i shld go nt,lik nobody lor.n den 2dae ,the books came liao,my mom ask 4 deliver.n i saw the POA bk,iz lik SO SO thick lah,omg,500+ pgs lor,nex yr die liao.

noe smthin?im juz gonna rot thrgh the hols n study hard 4 nex yr,guys r lik waste of time,i nv meet suitable ones.so ,off i am frm it.lucy teng same class nex yr.im so freakin bored,juz readin storybks lor n msn-in wit nitya.

hes nt even upset lor,i did rite?

omg.2dae was lik so emo lah.duno y leh.was abit fever ,so went home earlier lor.went out wit joyce n kaya n aaron n karenn priya.y m i emo ?i duno leh.nvm lah,shit left 5 mins onli.i went wit dem 2 bishan.sae meet wit kaya 12.00,she came at 2.00.aiyo...me n priya buy present 4 kaya,coz her burfdae mah.bt early early de lah.i juz realise im tlkin in lik point frm.utter rubbish lah.

my mum sae all sch no vacancy liao,so i no nd change sch.i duno if tat shld b a yay or a boo.anyway gtg liao lor.

f***

i told him tis aft i broke up,"actually,i wanted 2 break wit u a long time liao,bt ppl tell me nt 2 give up n continue tryin,so tat i did.bt i realised,ur nice,bt ur juz nt meant 4 me,ur character doesnt suit me at all.u 2 emo liao,n..i duno,bt ur juz nt the 1.tell u y,theres no reason y,its juz coz im nv really happy n com4table wit u.dun tk it 2 hard.erm...sorie?juz get over it lik u gt over yur ex's ."

mk sense?mayb,i duno.n i duno wich bloody fucker was it who told jian kuo.i hate ppl who misplace my trust . i hate u 2,jian kuo.great,u juz spoiled my day.fuck lor,bastard.i nv 1 2 c dem again.

hais..engh of tat,it was quitw interestin-kayaking.so fun!!bt i gt sunburned,lik omg lah,so dark lor.i 1 go wild wild wet lor,bt my mum sae veri x,so she 1 me sign up 4 duno wat NEbo membership ah,den cheaper,wah lau.-----TRUST------

n den finish kayak hor,me teng n jian hui,went 2 swing n play,wa lau,play wit teng on swing she knocked me off leh!!!i was lik 1/2 swingin on it lah.haha so cute lah she.sian,2moroe gt drill test,gt 2 cut nails,o'my darlin,i miss my nails!! yah bt wateva lor.

i dowan write anythin liao,no mood.anyway,joyce ,teng,priya,kaya n chan minh,i love u2!!!hope we'll always b 2gether.

n u noe y i hate him?coz actually he has been listenin 2 all my convo wit keane,n sum fucker ,i duno lah

8.34

its so borin im gonna b damn fat.im eatin so much,my mum kips buyin food,coz they're on offer.ah..im busy tlkin 2 teng teng n aaron.noe wat?my hols r kinda suckin.i really dowana change sch lor.

6.02

aiyo so borin..readin my library books.omg,left 10 mins ,wateva.the last post was written by teng ,noe wat?i think ive finally found TRUE frewns,n aft sum starry dreamed n sleepess nites,i finally noe wat 2 do wit my life n wit jian kuo n wit all the oth ppl.bt im gonna give it a shot.evryones gonna miss 2e2 coz it was such a crazy class.

hope tat the outin on sentosa will turn out fun!

wats important in ppl is ;honest,trust n selflessness.i noe wat 2 do.

hide"n" seek :D

currently at a certain library :D with teng teng and joyce. sorry then i am being MIA for a moment:( i have a reason behind all this. hope u can understand :D love u always

4.56

ive gt lik untill 5.30..so sian at home 2dae,chattin on msn wit kaya,so sad leh,its lik evrythins goin wrong ,well all seperated liao,so sad lor...jian kuo oso in E2 wit joyce n priya.i in E3 wit teng n karen ,i think oso can lah,mk new frewns ,gd oso.

yesterdae,went out wit keane jian kuo,elton,wilson priyah,chan n joyce..so fun!!aiyo..kaya,nv follow. we went to watch HSm,nt nice lah,no storyline,n sooo cold,shld hav brght jacket lah.we went 2 the swing there,keane went off liao,i sat on the swing n i fell off it,wa lau,n i let ny hair go mah,so i lk lik a siao za bor lor,wit sand all over me,hell lor,bt veri fun!! den i quarel wit elton,stupid idiot..yes i admit it was my fault i threw sand at him 1st,bt tat was 4 fun n only coz i thght he hid my slipper,juz 1 throw of little sand c'mon lah.n tat ungentlemanly idiot threw sand ,(awhole lot!)at my hair,bastard.den he slapped me,so fuckin hard.bastard.den jian kuo try 2 mediate.sotong lah he,still kena slap 4 tryin 2 hlp.

elton is nt at all sincere lor..dun care him,keane was totally rite.anyway,shall nt waste my face n brain cells bout him.hais..still waitin 4 the Home's reply wheter i cn b a volunter nt.i juz noe tat...itill b a gd yr nex yr.

4.42

2dae is so borin...im tryin 2 find a job,n i cnt find.ok,mayb iz coz im fussy,yah bt i really dowan 2 wrk in fastfood places.any way..my dad saes hes gonna bring us 2 fishin 2moroe,siao.do i lk lik i fish?no.

was on msn,n it was so rare tat i could go o9,jian kuo was'nt there,it shows...no fate?i guess so.bt,ive fallen 4 him,i cnt blive tis ,i wanted 2 "protect my heart" frm him,i juz wanted 2 try out and..tis is wat i gt. Goh Keane,do u noe tat u dun undstnd me at all.u r juz lik all oth guys,u think u noe it all,n tk wateva ive said as truth,bt it may nt always b as it seems.damien,u r rite,damn rite,yeah i m wateva u said,a flirt a cunning woman,a bitch a wateva..i dun care,u cn hav yur own thghts,bt dun pollute jian kuo's mind n tell him rubbish.

i muz admit,at tis moment 4.42pm,i still luv jian kuo.bt i duno if he does,cbt i blive he will.wnt he?i duno wat will happen if i c my cousin again?seriously,i duno,bt,im tryin 2 kip my heart locked in one place,4eva,wit jian kuo.

sigh..i gotta go now,n im lkin 4ward 2 the gatherin,luv ya.i will definitely miss ppl lik kaya,priya,joyce,jerlyn,chan minh,shayne,elton,keane n i think the entire class,haha...hope we'll remain in the same class,hopefully.

1.42pm

so borin ,at the com lab.teacher duno teachin wat shit.do u noe how totourous it has been 4 the past week?n den wat wif jian kuo problem,n my mother,n tis jian kuo dun even realise still on n on wif it.tis elton so idiotic i tell u,my trust is wasted on him.im angry...nonono,im 2 numb ald,ok it mks me fed-up.im nt gonna care anymore.

i will nv break wif jian kuo 4 now.bt luckily theres priya tat midget 2 hlp advice me.luv ya priya,(dun b 2 proud ah,2nd grandaughter).....

grr....so cold in the lab.sian,nt gonna bther wif my family liao, n my bro,ok?i dun care.

duno how teacher mk the shape move...mother sae 2dae cnt go out,borin n even more borin. my father cums bck evry wk,wich is lik so weird,all of a sudden,gt a motive muz b lah,bt i duno leh cold n even colder..bye bye ppl i love u

9.55

2dae so boring,heng heng my mom lemme use the com.shit times up... wateva ..so borin at home...jian kuo nt here,elton priya all nt here oso......take the pain

9.54

so sian....2dae my dad change story n sae no he nv sae meet 2dae,iz sat.wat the hell lah,he told me yesterdae sae meet @ mcdonald ,7.00.now sae he nv,go 2 hell lah sucker.den came anth sucker oso,im so dissapointed in my bro,he lied 2 my mum again n again,i feel so upset,my mum was oso cryin.n she saes tat the nex time he catches him again,shes gonna chase him outta the house.

i saw all the cane marks n pebble bruises on my bro,bt i didnt feel sorry 4 him,y is he lik tis?wen i heard it over the fone,i was wit jk in the canteen,bt i didnt show tat i was upset,i wnt spoil their mood.sometimes we wonder,y do we live?2 be happy!!y give ppl so much sadness n misery?brainless ppl,id rather....wateva lah

anyway,we had tis new shirt 4 GB ,n we all lk lik beer gals lor,bt ok lah quite nice leh.

anyway,my mum went out,muz b lk 4 tat marcus lah,wateva,she will b pourin her troubles 2 him,haiz,how i wish jk could b wit me now.i cnt bear the thght of him n me seperated 4 a wk,i'll miss him....

i hav a wunnerful ppl,i shall treasure it :)i luv u guys

anth wonderful dae

bloody hell only gt anth 20 mins,mum only gimme 1/2 hr 2 use com ,iz lik wtf man.bt still btter den nth,im o9 now ,nvm..aaron saw me log in straight away tlk 2 me,iz nt tat i dowanna tlk 2 him,iz im really busy tis few daes...den my bro wen 2 the NDp 2 watch hell b bck only ltr at bout 10.

haiz...im oso veri confused..any way,ah bear !!!u so cute!!! yah n he clls me ah sot,haha

im tlkin 2 jk now n time is runnin damn fast...gotta go..o yah n tat armpit joke frm karen,ill tell evryone

stupid pc cnt wrk at 1st,no connection den i try n try ,suddenly ok liao,sot de lah,yesterdae cnt use oso coz cnt wrk

so bored..anyway ltr goin 2 cousins house hav buffet,coz iz grandmas burfdae,gonna b so boring

sobs...

i feel so sad now,was feelin quite happy wen i was doin allthose personlity tests wif aaron likin at horoscopes,so funny,hahas.he certainly has brought sunshine.but..
aft tlkin 2 jian kuo i feel stupid,sobs..,aft tlkin 2 kaya i feel even mor depressed

den aaron hlp me c things better,n aft discussin,i felt sorta better even thgh i was angry wif him in the bgining...sian


i really duno y kaya n karen ah,they drive me nuts.

i feel so bored 2dae bt im 2 lazy 2 write down wat happened.i duno how the hell elton gt 2 read my blog so fast,seriously hes crazy,i read his comments n while drinkin lemon tea ,i spat it out,ok seriously i dowan 2 'criticise' wat he said,but frankly,i really hope he doesnt comments coz he doesnt noe how i feel n i feel sick wen i read wat he wrote.i noe hes juz tryin 2 comfort me,bt sorie i dun nd anybodys hlp,i wil n im fine by myself.

ok engh of crappin i really feel envious,i min iz lik ok i duno how 2 sae tis,jerlyns juz bck frm australia,priyah sae shes goin 2 sydney duno where,aaron oso juz bck frm thailand,evrybodys goin 2 sum where far n.... juz wonderin if my dad was here n he was wrkin,havin an income,will we b able 2 b lik jerlyn lik tat...i duno

hav been readin lots of love stories as usual n listenin 2 radio 98.7 24 hours.

now usin the computer secretly,anytime my mum may juz cum bck.wa lau veri scary leh,haizzz..

i wrd 2 describe my hols--BORING coz im nt goin anywhere,n i cnt go out.its lik jail.been chattin 2 kaya,sigh,duno wen kaya n karen will patch up again.

i REALLY REALLY 1 dem 2 patch up,mayb nt tat close but u noe at least tlk n go out 2gether lah,lik sumtimes wen my mum gimme permission 2 go out(RARELY),only once tat time coz i bluff her sae iz chan minh burfdae,duno y,bt she liks chan minh,mayb coz she's an A* student,anyway o yah as i was sayin,kaya n karen i fel so torn apart coz dey sae if karen is goin kaya is nt n vice versa..duno how leh,if they r still lik tis ah,nt mkin an effort 2 patch up things ah,i wnt die in peace ,trust me.i min i DUN CARE who started it,whos right whos wrong,juz sae sory,smile smile(even thgh iz a fake 1) n get it done n over wif.i min plz lah,we're lik 14 yrs old,nt 5,dun b childish lah.

wow,i think i tlked 2 much time 2 go off n watch 'jacky go go go'

r ya ready kids????aiya captain!!! bye 4 now..:)

ps.2 KAYA n KAREN
being angry with others hurts you more than it hurts them;anger is only 1 word short of danger.the world cn be heartles,friends shouldnt be.be the kind of friend you would want 2 have....

god noes...7.45

feel so gd,2 get away frm sch n yah pratically evrythin...hav been borrowin LOTS of romance bks n readin on my bed wif radio on.so gd...stupid sotong com had 2 breakdown,bought a new 1,mum had tat marcus guy fix it

m more confirm of the relationship btween her n him,saw in her camera him n her hands on waist ...eww,wateva were havin pizza n den 'suddenly',he appeared my mom said o wat a coincidence cum n hav lunch wit us lah,hell wif tat crap lah.....

alot has been goin in my mind,lkin bck at myself,i was veri critique,i noe dun wry,id b better.im goin 2 b wif hamidah 2 gether n study,nt gonna daydrean thrgh lessons

brother went 2 mayden last wk gonna b bck 2nite...duno how is he

sumtimes i think bout ny dad,n i duno but teardrops start 2 fall,if he was here,id tell him,daddy,im willin 2 wk up at 7 in the morn 2 hav breakfast wif u...now i dun even nnoe where is he,he didnt even cll,he promised me a mth ago he'd b bck,where r u daddy?????

im always wonderin ,would i n a better person if i had a dad 2 tk care of me?i stiol remember the gd times we had wen i was young,nice family perfect,now all shattered...i juz wanna hav a hug.its been ages since i gt a hug,all i cn do iz hug my bolster,i wanna person nt a dunbass bolster...

bt den now chattin 2 ppl lik kaya,n many mor,i feel btter...:)

siannn

ive been'enjoyin'4 past few days..SHIOK lAH! mth nt at home i did wateva i 1,went out,had so much fun. bt these few daes im so confused ,luv ppl n frewnship.especially faith n trust.

i really duno how,but anyway i tell myself,none of my buisness.y shld i care?den anth part of me saes i shld even thgh ....haiz an my heart kip tellin me tat its a trick,they gonna bluff me...suan le lah,zou yi bu,kan yi bu

den 2moroe maths trail,fcker lah ,bloody hell,i hate my group,i think i prefer beichun lor...

n den ***** tell me sum wrds tat i read oso veri touchin,cn cry liao.bt i told myself nt 2 b sucked in his typhoon of his wrds.so wat if it has been veri long?id b lyin 2 myself..dui bu qi

try 2 write mor lah,okbb

boy..u mk me wanna cry

i feel so emo the last 2-3 days liao,2dae oso,bt nt so bad lah,coz went 2 the stadium den so dammn funny,sum ppl raced den fell,nt tryin 2b mean lah,bt REALLY funny leh.bt evrytime i c him,i juz feel so emo

tat dae,i was runnin aft aaron,i juz wanted a fair game,no hlper,so i tell darien no nd him,den bout 5mins ltr he was "jealous",so he went off,den the innocent aaron tryin 2 pull him bck.wat kind of frewn iz tis,who dnt even trust the aaron.den aft tat we all emo liao.den i went home on same bus wif darien,was rainin HEAVILY!wah lau,so suay,den darien ask me 1 umbrella?i sae id rather wlk in der rain den tk yur umbrella,so i wlked SLOWLY,bloody hell,cum home ALL wet,bt so cool n nice der rain.

so i think aft tat inccident,aarons sorta avoidin me,god noes?i min we'r all juz frewns,playin,juz lik tat time darien play wit jerlyn,so wat? juz playin mah/only.sian i hate him

den 2dae went 2 hougang mall wit yah yah n jerlyn n nheimi n haresh n kaya n teng teng
...so fun!!ooops times up,gotta go,will try 2 catch up

bad dae

sianzzz,2dae,no mood rite,whole dae was RUINED by haresh.he cn cll me wateva he liks,BUT dun use physical!tats wat i hate!n tat idiot darien oso!!i hate dem!!!

im a total bitch(tryin 2 kip my bloody mouth shut)

i admit i was wrong 2 sae tat elton n jian kuo r failures in relationship,argh,REALLY REALLY shldnt hav sae tat,bt as u guys noe,i always speak wateva i lik without it processin my brain,i M tryin 2 change tis flaw of mine n i noe iz was harsh n totally wrong,god,i m so so sorry.bt even tat,he shldnt hav clled me a f bitch.juz wen i had overcomed,wanted 2 b bck 2 frewns wit elton,was sorta nt awkward liao,he has 2 hate me,sigh...

broke wit darien liao lik 2,3 wks ago.m a free gal now!i cn go aft wat i REALLY wan.juz wanna tell darien tat he'll find a gooder gal den me,,dun give up in relationships .i cnt blive jellyn n haresh broke,dunno if they'll eva get bck,bt i think 50-50 leh,bt it lks lik they bth dun lik each oth.

n den juz break camp 2dae.GB camp.wah lau,kena sunburn round my neck,all RED cn u blive it,so pain.n i feel so tired i juz wanna drop n sleep,yesterdae,me n priyah slept at 2,gotta wake at bout 7+,so sleepy,thurs oso.den yesterdae we played FEAR FACTOR,wah lau,we had 2 use only our ass 2 move along the mat,n on the mat iz full o f SOYA SAUCE,MASH BANANA..so we moved n were wearin pants so...all the sauce n banana went below into u noe where,n it was totally SICK,,eww..
went 2 bathe aft tat,den i i was 2 urgent, i peed in my pants, cn u blive it?argh..,i on da shower,n guessed wat happened?it could'nt wrk,nvm,more bad luck,i 4gt 2 bring my towel ,dammit,cnt cum out,so i was screamin away 4 priyah or any1 2 len me towel,mn finally.priyah len 2 me.i was lik thankuthanku!!!

den 2dae joycee,they'll so mean,coz u noe i was carryin tis green checkered giant bag,they kip sayin i goin 2 bintan ah ,den i was lik wateva lah,so i told evry1 bye,im goin 2 bintan,lik it was so lame.n durin da cheer,we were scremin our heads off,n den me desireen n jellyn gt da mad cow laughter dieases again,till we kena cll out 4 catwalk,in d end,change,we sae lame joke instead.

1---elton 2 nt hate me
2----kaya....
3-----jerlyn....
4------family
5-------studies
6---------get my oth half

- ----chingay.............

so dAmn angry 2 dae,juz coz i came bck late,my mum bloody smacked me up at 8 in da mornin n screamed at me 2 kNeel on da pebbles at d balcONy.bloody f her lah,feel lik cursin her,nt only did she do tat,i had tis thing tat was wit me for YRS wich had acompanied me wen i was sad or happy, n she juz tk n throw in da wallbin!damn her,n she said"so bold now har,cum bck late,who give u permission?i sae i will tk yur "privellage" rite?blah blah......den SUDDENLY,there came a "do u hav a bf?u btter nt hav or i'll chase u out of da house!n wen i sae it.i min it" blah blah wat eva

n u noe wat? SHE TAPES N RECORD ALL OUR CONVERSATION!i think so lah...coz she clled tis no.16095543205#* sumthin lik tat,dunno her lah,100% muz b lah.n i found tis 2 teddy bears wrapped up in roses n bouqets of flower,i TeLl u mUz b tAt gUy MARcus..n 2dae i logged in msn in her com acount while she was on da fone n i bloody 4gt 2 log off den i think kaya o9 n SHE tlked 2 kaya n kaya didnt noe who was it i dunno wat kaya said,i hope she didnt sae anythin bout guys...i REALLY hope,pray in lord's name

den i saw n peep in her fone inbox msgs while she was asleep. n there was tis msg--darlIn,y sO EaRlY?--dArLiN,gDnItE--BLOody hell of a basket,muz b frm tat marcus coz it was frm tis person name abcy n da no. was exactly da same as wat i found in her office plan,evrybody no. was there ,n it mtched a guy marcus lim

my dad came bck b4 xmas u noe n he didnt even cll,n lie 2 us sae he still in KL DOIN'BUISNESS' hahz.....n we r so pathetic thinkin he will cum bck......

ar there, cll liao juz ans her cll,tellin she at dunno wat chingay ar....aiyo SO many ppl,WE(MUZ B WIT MARCUS)....i,standin there in frnt gt family quarelllin,(hahz..i heard a guys laughter).......wateva

i ask her directly b4 u noe,but she said no,i dun unstd y she dun1 admit....goin 2 tell evry1 2 dun cll me 4 tis wk,mum gettin suspicious liao....haizzz...cnt go home wit him liao,coz any day my mun will juz cum suddenly n spot chck me....

ooh,n i had a nice valentine's.....tis elton ,he no wat he did n still sae,wat i do???wah lau,tis kind of ppl oso hav.m nt tlkin bout da msg f darien thingy iz bout he lik ...i dunno how sae lah anyway,u noe durin d drama thingy,HE try 2 team wit yah yah so tat i will act couple wit him!how dare he,i noe tis iz act only nt real but u noe diff ppl hav their reservations bout certain things n eg.me in tat case.den on stage liao,he ask yah yah 2 change role so he will b guy n i gurl,lau eh,buay tahan leh...he really ah........ARGHHH!!!!!!!!

ms loh change place 4 us,sian i 1 sit wif ham-i-gua!!!!!!!haizzz,bt nvm nadia oso cn ,as i sae,i m a veri kind person.able 2 get along wif EVRY1.....

last thursdae,made cake in home ec,in d end d egg spill onmy shoe,mixture was wrong,didnt c tat there was 2 set og utensils!!i m a g-u-n-d-u n a klutzz...haiya..n d cake turned out horid,on top was tis uneven surface n rock hard,ask keane hlp me pull out da grease paper coz i cnt tear n i try n it tored a little,den he peel liao,i saw below da cake-empty!heeheez!!den ta idiot aaron go mk my cake in2 paris hat,frisbee......si beh wu liao ,rock frisbee cake!!

happy bUrFdAe 2 MiE SeLf!!

Zzzz.....continue 2 WrItE 2 moRoE..................................

brr cold sia 2 dae....

cold sia 2dae.yesterdae,went 2 ice skatin,wah lau eh,i fell lik 10 times lor.even wif d wat 'walkin stick' i still fell STRAIGHT on my ass.wah lau.n den u noe i hold on d hand rail, n i STILL fell on my ass oso.n den sam n joycee n jellyn n desireen hlp me but cnt leh,so lks lik i hav no talent in ice skatin hahaz,juz lik in dancin 2.i really really cnt gt d steps u noe ,haiz n dthey were lik so pissed off liao.

n den u noe aft ice skatin,jellyn blanjah me eat chicken rice n ya ya buy french fries n we dapao 2 sch n makan in frnt of d NCC guys.n duh,haresh was there,n he had green paint ALL over his face so 'cute',lk lik a bush,n den tat gundu use water 2 wash n wash,but cnt cum out,den finally he use soap n it all came out,gundu really.n den he was lik splutterin allover coz i think soap gt in his mouth or eyes,hahaz.

den evry dae darien iz lik sendin me home evrydae,n i m lik no need lah,coz ltr he go home nd 2 wlk 2 bus stops more leh,dammn far u noe.haixx...tell him liao,he still insist......sae nvm lah,cn exercise oso,boh liao lah... den tis aaron so irritatin leh,lemme tell u sum of his si beh boh liao antics...blow his smelly air frm his mouth 2 me n pollute d air,kick my chair,cll me den sae nth,pull my hairband frm my hair,cll me n sae gt a ccret den sae wu liao de thingz,n den act cute n sae sowie instead of sorrue ,quite 'cute' leh hehehe....arghh qi si wo le. 4wrdz 2 describe him:si beh boh liao

i email mr kang evry wk 1,dunno y tis wk no reply leh.sian.we went 2 d old flks home on thur,so sian lor,7 of us were at d rehab centre n d rest of d class were at d oth side there singgin so happily,den we r lik doin sum haha hoho laughter nusic german therapy wif dem,sian......n den tis aaron went 2 drink 5 cups of d drinks omg,n den kip makin me laugh n almost spit out my water coz he kip sayin wat yellow goodness n b careful of wat u drink coz iz urine n blah blah...idiot, mk me laugh untill i had stitches inside wah lau..

ooh n den u noe 4 more daes 2 my burfdae/CNY!!!so happy,but....no cake,sobs....nvm,ham.i.gua sae she 1 bake a big cake 4 me.yeah...actually no nd lahx,i juz nd wishes frm my frewnz tat i will b 'prettier' hahz juz kiddin juz DUN cll me BRITNEY BITCH.n my mum saes we will b goin 2 tis sakura buffet 4 reunion dinner tis tue on d 5th yum yum,lots of makan,2bad they dun hav chocolate fondue oooh...........n i oso gt tis feelin tat elton iz lik gt sumthin goin on but....may b iz i think 2 much lah siann

n u noe recently i found a new thing tat i cn n lik 2 do wen i m free at hiome,i lik 2 listen 2 d radio-98.7fm n hug my bolster n lie on my pillow n cover up in my blanket n lk at d sky n clouds(omg,how many 'n' hav i used)

brr cold2 dae....

saddddzzzz

thingz hav taken a thigs step further.now elton n darien n elton r ok liao.so i think,in termz of frewnship,iz ok. but oth ppl,they sayin tat i makin use of darien 2 gt rid of elton n blah blah.i dun bth dem lah.

den rahayu.......she WAS my best frewn but now,she saes i spend 2 much time wif jerlyn priya n hamidah n nt enough time wif her so rahayu now iz lik leavin me alone,evry time i try 2 tlk 2 her she juz saes,bitch shuddup,or ,cn u stop being so slutty.i tolerated her 2dae already u noe,she sae rite in frnt of evry1,loud n clear:u noe tis bloody jane,kip turnin bhind 2 tlk 2 her fuckin bf.wah lau,cnt tahan her liao u noe,,bt i juz sae nvm. den i JUZ chatted wif her over yahoo de msn,den we started off fine,nt untill d end den she she sae i hav no face,i ask her repeat again ,she said:PPL LIK U HAV NO FACE N NO SHAME.

den iz lik hurt me liao lorx,so i juz sign out lor,den she sen last 1 sae i dun dare face d truth,i noe i m sorrie,she's pissed off wif me over tat frewnship stuff,n juz coz i kip tlkin 2 aaron haresh n oth guys includin darien ,she lik EVEN more pissed off den lik i tell u ,start cllin me those names lah.i dunno wat 2 do ,really.i 1 frewnship n darien bt,she's juz forcin me 2 choosin 1 ,bt i dunno...i 1 bth those wrdz she use at me,ALL vulgarities............i feel lik so useless lor,iz lik ppl sae they cn control their mind n destiny n fate n blah blah,teavh me lah,evrythin i do iz juz nt rute,ppl always gt hurt,i dunnno,izit coz i dun think b4 i do thingzz....??n d WHOLE mornin of home ec,she juz kip usin vulgar at me duno wat darien tis darien tat,lau ehhh.....

den we went 2 d pertapis home,ok d children r cute,bt nt d smll malay boyz,wah lau,i NV do anythin 2 dem,dey go pull my shoelaces n cll me crazy,n they show middle finger summore,OMG.sianzzz....but d dancin was fun

sum1 juz tell me wat 2 do cn,sianzz,still waitin 4 mr kang reply........

fridae /2dae

fri was fine ....but i miss him so much.it has been since past 1 dae since i saw him. den tis kaya dowan pass msg,fine wateva lah.i cnt sms,call,msn.all cnt. aiyo i lik 1 2 die liao.den tis elton,i dunno wether he angry nt leh,iz lik if he REALLY lik me,den lemme go.stop wastin time.den tis haresh ask if we r happiie?lik?wah lau,we r in misery lahx.i really hope we cn b in peace lor.i mean i dowan darien 2 fallout wif dem lah.den i lik cnt do anythin 2 hlp him oso.n he's lk so sweet lah.

n i cnt bloody communicate wif ANY1 xcept 4 kaya in msg in yahoo,only,coz my bloody mum tk out d programme of msn.n she dun allow me 2 alter my GB dress ,i use MY $$ leh,i hate her lah.wah lau.den i email mr kang ,c if he cn hlp me nt.any1 tellme y tis kind of thing always happen??????y???

den u noe tis kaya,kip sayin jellyn,i noe iz me who nv fufil my promise,i try 2 ask u sit wif me,u sae u dowan 1 wat.tell me wat u 1 me 2 do?
i noe karen bckstab u ,wat u 1 me 2 do?i noe evry1 cnt stnd me lah,evrythin i do fails. relationship,familiy,frewnz,n wateva lah.

iz nt tat i dun lik darien,i lik him,lbt each time i dunno y bt i KIP thinkin tat they all includin yah yah darien elton haresh n jerlyn r lik trickin n lyin 2 me.i dunno y even thgh bi THINK tat i M wrong.bt i cnt stop havin thghts in mie mind. n den he thinks i dun lik him,i do,bt i cnt tell him NOW,i cn only on mon.i miss my dad..**sigh

omg!!!!!! aiyo my sis juz show me d strawberri milk , i put in freezer coz i 1 it cold faster,aiyooooo,bcum ICE liao........aghh

c?i cnt do anythin rite lah.kaya ,sit wif me on mon aft rec3ess k???dariennnnnnnnnnnn,tellme yur opinion cn nt?????????????i dowan 2 guess liao n ask liao lah.eltonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn u lettin us off nt,u angry nt?????????? i dUUNNO N I DUN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!d 2 of u tellme dun b upset n evrythin will b alrite.HOW???????????????????????????????????????????so com-pli-cat-ed!!!!

i dowan all these truble lahxxxxxx.lemme alone.i wan b lik d clouds ,eve so care frre nt restricted lik me 4 walls round me coz of my mum......

AHHH,ARGHHHHH

.......................11/1/08 get lost

2dae so sian,geo tcher was ramblin on n on bout da dunno wat population blah blah....den tat hamigua n jerlyn i noe they all 1 lah,CONCENTRATE 1 lor.yah yah .ok lah a little more chatty den dem.kaya oso lor.last tue or wed,sumthin amazin happened 2 me,my $$ n jelly n plaster kena stolen.tat bloddy thief DARed 2 actually denied it rite in front of me,wen i had a witness.INSISTIN tat she took 20cent ONLY a plaster.i juz feel lik swearin at her liao lor,bt i did'nt if nt tat mdm ng will sent me 2 councellin again n sae i gt anger management prob.

da prob iz nt bout wat she took ,iz tat she took liao n refuse 2 admit it.she noes i m nt veri rich coz i m raise by my mum only n she......i REALLY dunno wat she has gt against me n SHE was d 1 who i was referin 2 in d oth post,HYPOCRITE.she juz luvz 2 get those 'attention'.i admit i had nt wanted 2 mk frewnz wif clare or nt tlk 2 her at all,i noe i did sumthins 2 her.now i sincerly apologise, i'm sorry clare if i hav been mean 2 u.4give me thgh i noe iz hard.haix..............

new maid iz comin liao,i dunno,i juz feel ...........................i juz feel lik cryin,i noe i lk strong on d outside n ppl feel tat juz a maid isnt worth it but...n elton iz comin bck liao ,i dun care if he iz seein tis or nt,i juz wanna let him noe tat i dun lik him n he has/hasnt acept d fact.i REALLy hope he will juz leave me as i m ,i noe iz veri cruel ,he may sae i didnt consider his feelins n wateva btiz better 2 mk things clear NOW den let him suffer slow torture.....i juz dowanna hav tis label,haix..tell him so much he still dun undstnd coz he's nt me,he does'nt noe WAT iz it lik 2 b lik by sum1 u dun lik,n da whole wide world who noes it.iz tortures.........

tat marcus guy came n passed nie mum sum chocolate n goodies .said he went 2 HK .i mean he cum bck.wat it gotta do wif us?u noe wat i mean?unless.....i dunno

PS n btw witness is kaya aka SITI RAHAYU aka the vaccum sushi cleaner :)

holy crap

finally had a chance 2 use da com.hav so many things 2 sae lor. firstly was tat most horrid xmas i had.my maid went down 2 meet her frewn ,i told her 2 b bck in 15mins coz mie mum sure cll bck 1. nv listen wat i sae,mum cll bck,she nt at home,my granma sae she been out 4 more den an hr liao.den mum gt ANGRY ,VERI hot leh.flew strght home scream at us.wat eva lah dowan bth liao.no cake no nth sian.....

my mum ar,i think she gt anth guy liao lor.i ask her she sae no leh,wat crap man.i cn list thousandz of xamples n clue tat cn prove it lor.wat eva oso.
den we argued over da malay langguage course whether i shld go coz she sae iz wastin ma time.holy crap.in d end,she called cher n she encouraged my mum 2 lemme go.

den we argue bout anth thing .she INSIST tat tis reunion dinner tis yr eat at home,evry yr we at my father mother's house eat.so i argue lah,in d end wat happen?obviously i kena ask 2 SHUTTUP lah.

n den on da 2nd dae of sch,haha.sum1 called me sumthin,n she herself was lik a hypocrite lah.tis kind of ppl PATHETIC.she thinks she so smart veri cool.she think i nv hear wen she shouted frm da window,haha.wateva.

n den i gt so much 2 sae i cnt write out.i miss mie dad so much,aft 6 mths FINALLY,he cll ONCE!!!!!!!!! i was lik so happiie lah!!!!!!!bt he sae he will only b bck durin chinese New yr,wich iz coincidentally my burfdae.haix.......no cake all shops close mah........


bt sch WAS xcitin n fun lah,new studentz n chers. quite happiie lor.