bad dae

sianzzz,2dae,no mood rite,whole dae was RUINED by haresh.he cn cll me wateva he liks,BUT dun use physical!tats wat i hate!n tat idiot darien oso!!i hate dem!!!

im a total bitch(tryin 2 kip my bloody mouth shut)

i admit i was wrong 2 sae tat elton n jian kuo r failures in relationship,argh,REALLY REALLY shldnt hav sae tat,bt as u guys noe,i always speak wateva i lik without it processin my brain,i M tryin 2 change tis flaw of mine n i noe iz was harsh n totally wrong,god,i m so so sorry.bt even tat,he shldnt hav clled me a f bitch.juz wen i had overcomed,wanted 2 b bck 2 frewns wit elton,was sorta nt awkward liao,he has 2 hate me,sigh...

broke wit darien liao lik 2,3 wks ago.m a free gal now!i cn go aft wat i REALLY wan.juz wanna tell darien tat he'll find a gooder gal den me,,dun give up in relationships .i cnt blive jellyn n haresh broke,dunno if they'll eva get bck,bt i think 50-50 leh,bt it lks lik they bth dun lik each oth.

n den juz break camp 2dae.GB camp.wah lau,kena sunburn round my neck,all RED cn u blive it,so pain.n i feel so tired i juz wanna drop n sleep,yesterdae,me n priyah slept at 2,gotta wake at bout 7+,so sleepy,thurs oso.den yesterdae we played FEAR FACTOR,wah lau,we had 2 use only our ass 2 move along the mat,n on the mat iz full o f SOYA SAUCE,MASH BANANA..so we moved n were wearin pants so...all the sauce n banana went below into u noe where,n it was totally SICK,,eww..
went 2 bathe aft tat,den i i was 2 urgent, i peed in my pants, cn u blive it?argh..,i on da shower,n guessed wat happened?it could'nt wrk,nvm,more bad luck,i 4gt 2 bring my towel ,dammit,cnt cum out,so i was screamin away 4 priyah or any1 2 len me towel,mn finally.priyah len 2 me.i was lik thankuthanku!!!

den 2dae joycee,they'll so mean,coz u noe i was carryin tis green checkered giant bag,they kip sayin i goin 2 bintan ah ,den i was lik wateva lah,so i told evry1 bye,im goin 2 bintan,lik it was so lame.n durin da cheer,we were scremin our heads off,n den me desireen n jellyn gt da mad cow laughter dieases again,till we kena cll out 4 catwalk,in d end,change,we sae lame joke instead.

1---elton 2 nt hate me
2----kaya....
3-----jerlyn....
4------family
5-------studies
6---------get my oth half

- ----chingay.............

so dAmn angry 2 dae,juz coz i came bck late,my mum bloody smacked me up at 8 in da mornin n screamed at me 2 kNeel on da pebbles at d balcONy.bloody f her lah,feel lik cursin her,nt only did she do tat,i had tis thing tat was wit me for YRS wich had acompanied me wen i was sad or happy, n she juz tk n throw in da wallbin!damn her,n she said"so bold now har,cum bck late,who give u permission?i sae i will tk yur "privellage" rite?blah blah......den SUDDENLY,there came a "do u hav a bf?u btter nt hav or i'll chase u out of da house!n wen i sae it.i min it" blah blah wat eva

n u noe wat? SHE TAPES N RECORD ALL OUR CONVERSATION!i think so lah...coz she clled tis no.16095543205#* sumthin lik tat,dunno her lah,100% muz b lah.n i found tis 2 teddy bears wrapped up in roses n bouqets of flower,i TeLl u mUz b tAt gUy MARcus..n 2dae i logged in msn in her com acount while she was on da fone n i bloody 4gt 2 log off den i think kaya o9 n SHE tlked 2 kaya n kaya didnt noe who was it i dunno wat kaya said,i hope she didnt sae anythin bout guys...i REALLY hope,pray in lord's name

den i saw n peep in her fone inbox msgs while she was asleep. n there was tis msg--darlIn,y sO EaRlY?--dArLiN,gDnItE--BLOody hell of a basket,muz b frm tat marcus coz it was frm tis person name abcy n da no. was exactly da same as wat i found in her office plan,evrybody no. was there ,n it mtched a guy marcus lim

my dad came bck b4 xmas u noe n he didnt even cll,n lie 2 us sae he still in KL DOIN'BUISNESS' hahz.....n we r so pathetic thinkin he will cum bck......

ar there, cll liao juz ans her cll,tellin she at dunno wat chingay ar....aiyo SO many ppl,WE(MUZ B WIT MARCUS)....i,standin there in frnt gt family quarelllin,(hahz..i heard a guys laughter).......wateva

i ask her directly b4 u noe,but she said no,i dun unstd y she dun1 admit....goin 2 tell evry1 2 dun cll me 4 tis wk,mum gettin suspicious liao....haizzz...cnt go home wit him liao,coz any day my mun will juz cum suddenly n spot chck me....

ooh,n i had a nice valentine's.....tis elton ,he no wat he did n still sae,wat i do???wah lau,tis kind of ppl oso hav.m nt tlkin bout da msg f darien thingy iz bout he lik ...i dunno how sae lah anyway,u noe durin d drama thingy,HE try 2 team wit yah yah so tat i will act couple wit him!how dare he,i noe tis iz act only nt real but u noe diff ppl hav their reservations bout certain things n eg.me in tat case.den on stage liao,he ask yah yah 2 change role so he will b guy n i gurl,lau eh,buay tahan leh...he really ah........ARGHHH!!!!!!!!

ms loh change place 4 us,sian i 1 sit wif ham-i-gua!!!!!!!haizzz,bt nvm nadia oso cn ,as i sae,i m a veri kind person.able 2 get along wif EVRY1.....

last thursdae,made cake in home ec,in d end d egg spill onmy shoe,mixture was wrong,didnt c tat there was 2 set og utensils!!i m a g-u-n-d-u n a klutzz...haiya..n d cake turned out horid,on top was tis uneven surface n rock hard,ask keane hlp me pull out da grease paper coz i cnt tear n i try n it tored a little,den he peel liao,i saw below da cake-empty!heeheez!!den ta idiot aaron go mk my cake in2 paris hat,frisbee......si beh wu liao ,rock frisbee cake!!

happy bUrFdAe 2 MiE SeLf!!

Zzzz.....continue 2 WrItE 2 moRoE..................................

brr cold sia 2 dae....

cold sia 2dae.yesterdae,went 2 ice skatin,wah lau eh,i fell lik 10 times lor.even wif d wat 'walkin stick' i still fell STRAIGHT on my ass.wah lau.n den u noe i hold on d hand rail, n i STILL fell on my ass oso.n den sam n joycee n jellyn n desireen hlp me but cnt leh,so lks lik i hav no talent in ice skatin hahaz,juz lik in dancin 2.i really really cnt gt d steps u noe ,haiz n dthey were lik so pissed off liao.

n den u noe aft ice skatin,jellyn blanjah me eat chicken rice n ya ya buy french fries n we dapao 2 sch n makan in frnt of d NCC guys.n duh,haresh was there,n he had green paint ALL over his face so 'cute',lk lik a bush,n den tat gundu use water 2 wash n wash,but cnt cum out,den finally he use soap n it all came out,gundu really.n den he was lik splutterin allover coz i think soap gt in his mouth or eyes,hahaz.

den evry dae darien iz lik sendin me home evrydae,n i m lik no need lah,coz ltr he go home nd 2 wlk 2 bus stops more leh,dammn far u noe.haixx...tell him liao,he still insist......sae nvm lah,cn exercise oso,boh liao lah... den tis aaron so irritatin leh,lemme tell u sum of his si beh boh liao antics...blow his smelly air frm his mouth 2 me n pollute d air,kick my chair,cll me den sae nth,pull my hairband frm my hair,cll me n sae gt a ccret den sae wu liao de thingz,n den act cute n sae sowie instead of sorrue ,quite 'cute' leh hehehe....arghh qi si wo le. 4wrdz 2 describe him:si beh boh liao

i email mr kang evry wk 1,dunno y tis wk no reply leh.sian.we went 2 d old flks home on thur,so sian lor,7 of us were at d rehab centre n d rest of d class were at d oth side there singgin so happily,den we r lik doin sum haha hoho laughter nusic german therapy wif dem,sian......n den tis aaron went 2 drink 5 cups of d drinks omg,n den kip makin me laugh n almost spit out my water coz he kip sayin wat yellow goodness n b careful of wat u drink coz iz urine n blah blah...idiot, mk me laugh untill i had stitches inside wah lau..

ooh n den u noe 4 more daes 2 my burfdae/CNY!!!so happy,but....no cake,sobs....nvm,ham.i.gua sae she 1 bake a big cake 4 me.yeah...actually no nd lahx,i juz nd wishes frm my frewnz tat i will b 'prettier' hahz juz kiddin juz DUN cll me BRITNEY BITCH.n my mum saes we will b goin 2 tis sakura buffet 4 reunion dinner tis tue on d 5th yum yum,lots of makan,2bad they dun hav chocolate fondue oooh...........n i oso gt tis feelin tat elton iz lik gt sumthin goin on but....may b iz i think 2 much lah siann

n u noe recently i found a new thing tat i cn n lik 2 do wen i m free at hiome,i lik 2 listen 2 d radio-98.7fm n hug my bolster n lie on my pillow n cover up in my blanket n lk at d sky n clouds(omg,how many 'n' hav i used)

brr cold2 dae....

saddddzzzz

thingz hav taken a thigs step further.now elton n darien n elton r ok liao.so i think,in termz of frewnship,iz ok. but oth ppl,they sayin tat i makin use of darien 2 gt rid of elton n blah blah.i dun bth dem lah.

den rahayu.......she WAS my best frewn but now,she saes i spend 2 much time wif jerlyn priya n hamidah n nt enough time wif her so rahayu now iz lik leavin me alone,evry time i try 2 tlk 2 her she juz saes,bitch shuddup,or ,cn u stop being so slutty.i tolerated her 2dae already u noe,she sae rite in frnt of evry1,loud n clear:u noe tis bloody jane,kip turnin bhind 2 tlk 2 her fuckin bf.wah lau,cnt tahan her liao u noe,,bt i juz sae nvm. den i JUZ chatted wif her over yahoo de msn,den we started off fine,nt untill d end den she she sae i hav no face,i ask her repeat again ,she said:PPL LIK U HAV NO FACE N NO SHAME.

den iz lik hurt me liao lorx,so i juz sign out lor,den she sen last 1 sae i dun dare face d truth,i noe i m sorrie,she's pissed off wif me over tat frewnship stuff,n juz coz i kip tlkin 2 aaron haresh n oth guys includin darien ,she lik EVEN more pissed off den lik i tell u ,start cllin me those names lah.i dunno wat 2 do ,really.i 1 frewnship n darien bt,she's juz forcin me 2 choosin 1 ,bt i dunno...i 1 bth those wrdz she use at me,ALL vulgarities............i feel lik so useless lor,iz lik ppl sae they cn control their mind n destiny n fate n blah blah,teavh me lah,evrythin i do iz juz nt rute,ppl always gt hurt,i dunnno,izit coz i dun think b4 i do thingzz....??n d WHOLE mornin of home ec,she juz kip usin vulgar at me duno wat darien tis darien tat,lau ehhh.....

den we went 2 d pertapis home,ok d children r cute,bt nt d smll malay boyz,wah lau,i NV do anythin 2 dem,dey go pull my shoelaces n cll me crazy,n they show middle finger summore,OMG.sianzzz....but d dancin was fun

sum1 juz tell me wat 2 do cn,sianzz,still waitin 4 mr kang reply........