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so sian....2dae my dad change story n sae no he nv sae meet 2dae,iz sat.wat the hell lah,he told me yesterdae sae meet @ mcdonald ,7.00.now sae he nv,go 2 hell lah sucker.den came anth sucker oso,im so dissapointed in my bro,he lied 2 my mum again n again,i feel so upset,my mum was oso cryin.n she saes tat the nex time he catches him again,shes gonna chase him outta the house.

i saw all the cane marks n pebble bruises on my bro,bt i didnt feel sorry 4 him,y is he lik tis?wen i heard it over the fone,i was wit jk in the canteen,bt i didnt show tat i was upset,i wnt spoil their mood.sometimes we wonder,y do we live?2 be happy!!y give ppl so much sadness n misery?brainless ppl,id rather....wateva lah

anyway,we had tis new shirt 4 GB ,n we all lk lik beer gals lor,bt ok lah quite nice leh.

anyway,my mum went out,muz b lk 4 tat marcus lah,wateva,she will b pourin her troubles 2 him,haiz,how i wish jk could b wit me now.i cnt bear the thght of him n me seperated 4 a wk,i'll miss him....

i hav a wunnerful ppl,i shall treasure it :)i luv u guys

anth wonderful dae

bloody hell only gt anth 20 mins,mum only gimme 1/2 hr 2 use com ,iz lik wtf man.bt still btter den nth,im o9 now ,nvm..aaron saw me log in straight away tlk 2 me,iz nt tat i dowanna tlk 2 him,iz im really busy tis few daes...den my bro wen 2 the NDp 2 watch hell b bck only ltr at bout 10.

haiz...im oso veri confused..any way,ah bear !!!u so cute!!! yah n he clls me ah sot,haha

im tlkin 2 jk now n time is runnin damn fast...gotta go..o yah n tat armpit joke frm karen,ill tell evryone

stupid pc cnt wrk at 1st,no connection den i try n try ,suddenly ok liao,sot de lah,yesterdae cnt use oso coz cnt wrk

so bored..anyway ltr goin 2 cousins house hav buffet,coz iz grandmas burfdae,gonna b so boring

sobs...

i feel so sad now,was feelin quite happy wen i was doin allthose personlity tests wif aaron likin at horoscopes,so funny,hahas.he certainly has brought sunshine.but..
aft tlkin 2 jian kuo i feel stupid,sobs..,aft tlkin 2 kaya i feel even mor depressed

den aaron hlp me c things better,n aft discussin,i felt sorta better even thgh i was angry wif him in the bgining...sian


i really duno y kaya n karen ah,they drive me nuts.

i feel so bored 2dae bt im 2 lazy 2 write down wat happened.i duno how the hell elton gt 2 read my blog so fast,seriously hes crazy,i read his comments n while drinkin lemon tea ,i spat it out,ok seriously i dowan 2 'criticise' wat he said,but frankly,i really hope he doesnt comments coz he doesnt noe how i feel n i feel sick wen i read wat he wrote.i noe hes juz tryin 2 comfort me,bt sorie i dun nd anybodys hlp,i wil n im fine by myself.

ok engh of crappin i really feel envious,i min iz lik ok i duno how 2 sae tis,jerlyns juz bck frm australia,priyah sae shes goin 2 sydney duno where,aaron oso juz bck frm thailand,evrybodys goin 2 sum where far n.... juz wonderin if my dad was here n he was wrkin,havin an income,will we b able 2 b lik jerlyn lik tat...i duno

hav been readin lots of love stories as usual n listenin 2 radio 98.7 24 hours.

now usin the computer secretly,anytime my mum may juz cum bck.wa lau veri scary leh,haizzz..

i wrd 2 describe my hols--BORING coz im nt goin anywhere,n i cnt go out.its lik jail.been chattin 2 kaya,sigh,duno wen kaya n karen will patch up again.

i REALLY REALLY 1 dem 2 patch up,mayb nt tat close but u noe at least tlk n go out 2gether lah,lik sumtimes wen my mum gimme permission 2 go out(RARELY),only once tat time coz i bluff her sae iz chan minh burfdae,duno y,bt she liks chan minh,mayb coz she's an A* student,anyway o yah as i was sayin,kaya n karen i fel so torn apart coz dey sae if karen is goin kaya is nt n vice versa..duno how leh,if they r still lik tis ah,nt mkin an effort 2 patch up things ah,i wnt die in peace ,trust me.i min i DUN CARE who started it,whos right whos wrong,juz sae sory,smile smile(even thgh iz a fake 1) n get it done n over wif.i min plz lah,we're lik 14 yrs old,nt 5,dun b childish lah.

wow,i think i tlked 2 much time 2 go off n watch 'jacky go go go'

r ya ready kids????aiya captain!!! bye 4 now..:)

ps.2 KAYA n KAREN
being angry with others hurts you more than it hurts them;anger is only 1 word short of danger.the world cn be heartles,friends shouldnt be.be the kind of friend you would want 2 have....

god noes...7.45

feel so gd,2 get away frm sch n yah pratically evrythin...hav been borrowin LOTS of romance bks n readin on my bed wif radio on.so gd...stupid sotong com had 2 breakdown,bought a new 1,mum had tat marcus guy fix it

m more confirm of the relationship btween her n him,saw in her camera him n her hands on waist ...eww,wateva were havin pizza n den 'suddenly',he appeared my mom said o wat a coincidence cum n hav lunch wit us lah,hell wif tat crap lah.....

alot has been goin in my mind,lkin bck at myself,i was veri critique,i noe dun wry,id b better.im goin 2 b wif hamidah 2 gether n study,nt gonna daydrean thrgh lessons

brother went 2 mayden last wk gonna b bck 2nite...duno how is he

sumtimes i think bout ny dad,n i duno but teardrops start 2 fall,if he was here,id tell him,daddy,im willin 2 wk up at 7 in the morn 2 hav breakfast wif u...now i dun even nnoe where is he,he didnt even cll,he promised me a mth ago he'd b bck,where r u daddy?????

im always wonderin ,would i n a better person if i had a dad 2 tk care of me?i stiol remember the gd times we had wen i was young,nice family perfect,now all shattered...i juz wanna hav a hug.its been ages since i gt a hug,all i cn do iz hug my bolster,i wanna person nt a dunbass bolster...

bt den now chattin 2 ppl lik kaya,n many mor,i feel btter...:)

siannn

ive been'enjoyin'4 past few days..SHIOK lAH! mth nt at home i did wateva i 1,went out,had so much fun. bt these few daes im so confused ,luv ppl n frewnship.especially faith n trust.

i really duno how,but anyway i tell myself,none of my buisness.y shld i care?den anth part of me saes i shld even thgh ....haiz an my heart kip tellin me tat its a trick,they gonna bluff me...suan le lah,zou yi bu,kan yi bu

den 2moroe maths trail,fcker lah ,bloody hell,i hate my group,i think i prefer beichun lor...

n den ***** tell me sum wrds tat i read oso veri touchin,cn cry liao.bt i told myself nt 2 b sucked in his typhoon of his wrds.so wat if it has been veri long?id b lyin 2 myself..dui bu qi

try 2 write mor lah,okbb