i feel so bored 2dae bt im 2 lazy 2 write down wat happened.i duno how the hell elton gt 2 read my blog so fast,seriously hes crazy,i read his comments n while drinkin lemon tea ,i spat it out,ok seriously i dowan 2 'criticise' wat he said,but frankly,i really hope he doesnt comments coz he doesnt noe how i feel n i feel sick wen i read wat he wrote.i noe hes juz tryin 2 comfort me,bt sorie i dun nd anybodys hlp,i wil n im fine by myself.

ok engh of crappin i really feel envious,i min iz lik ok i duno how 2 sae tis,jerlyns juz bck frm australia,priyah sae shes goin 2 sydney duno where,aaron oso juz bck frm thailand,evrybodys goin 2 sum where far n.... juz wonderin if my dad was here n he was wrkin,havin an income,will we b able 2 b lik jerlyn lik tat...i duno

hav been readin lots of love stories as usual n listenin 2 radio 98.7 24 hours.

now usin the computer secretly,anytime my mum may juz cum bck.wa lau veri scary leh,haizzz..

i wrd 2 describe my hols--BORING coz im nt goin anywhere,n i cnt go out.its lik jail.been chattin 2 kaya,sigh,duno wen kaya n karen will patch up again.

i REALLY REALLY 1 dem 2 patch up,mayb nt tat close but u noe at least tlk n go out 2gether lah,lik sumtimes wen my mum gimme permission 2 go out(RARELY),only once tat time coz i bluff her sae iz chan minh burfdae,duno y,bt she liks chan minh,mayb coz she's an A* student,anyway o yah as i was sayin,kaya n karen i fel so torn apart coz dey sae if karen is goin kaya is nt n vice versa..duno how leh,if they r still lik tis ah,nt mkin an effort 2 patch up things ah,i wnt die in peace ,trust me.i min i DUN CARE who started it,whos right whos wrong,juz sae sory,smile smile(even thgh iz a fake 1) n get it done n over wif.i min plz lah,we're lik 14 yrs old,nt 5,dun b childish lah.

wow,i think i tlked 2 much time 2 go off n watch 'jacky go go go'

r ya ready kids????aiya captain!!! bye 4 now..:)

ps.2 KAYA n KAREN
being angry with others hurts you more than it hurts them;anger is only 1 word short of danger.the world cn be heartles,friends shouldnt be.be the kind of friend you would want 2 have....

god noes...7.45

feel so gd,2 get away frm sch n yah pratically evrythin...hav been borrowin LOTS of romance bks n readin on my bed wif radio on.so gd...stupid sotong com had 2 breakdown,bought a new 1,mum had tat marcus guy fix it

m more confirm of the relationship btween her n him,saw in her camera him n her hands on waist ...eww,wateva were havin pizza n den 'suddenly',he appeared my mom said o wat a coincidence cum n hav lunch wit us lah,hell wif tat crap lah.....

alot has been goin in my mind,lkin bck at myself,i was veri critique,i noe dun wry,id b better.im goin 2 b wif hamidah 2 gether n study,nt gonna daydrean thrgh lessons

brother went 2 mayden last wk gonna b bck 2nite...duno how is he

sumtimes i think bout ny dad,n i duno but teardrops start 2 fall,if he was here,id tell him,daddy,im willin 2 wk up at 7 in the morn 2 hav breakfast wif u...now i dun even nnoe where is he,he didnt even cll,he promised me a mth ago he'd b bck,where r u daddy?????

im always wonderin ,would i n a better person if i had a dad 2 tk care of me?i stiol remember the gd times we had wen i was young,nice family perfect,now all shattered...i juz wanna hav a hug.its been ages since i gt a hug,all i cn do iz hug my bolster,i wanna person nt a dunbass bolster...

bt den now chattin 2 ppl lik kaya,n many mor,i feel btter...:)

siannn

ive been'enjoyin'4 past few days..SHIOK lAH! mth nt at home i did wateva i 1,went out,had so much fun. bt these few daes im so confused ,luv ppl n frewnship.especially faith n trust.

i really duno how,but anyway i tell myself,none of my buisness.y shld i care?den anth part of me saes i shld even thgh ....haiz an my heart kip tellin me tat its a trick,they gonna bluff me...suan le lah,zou yi bu,kan yi bu

den 2moroe maths trail,fcker lah ,bloody hell,i hate my group,i think i prefer beichun lor...

n den ***** tell me sum wrds tat i read oso veri touchin,cn cry liao.bt i told myself nt 2 b sucked in his typhoon of his wrds.so wat if it has been veri long?id b lyin 2 myself..dui bu qi

try 2 write mor lah,okbb

boy..u mk me wanna cry

i feel so emo the last 2-3 days liao,2dae oso,bt nt so bad lah,coz went 2 the stadium den so dammn funny,sum ppl raced den fell,nt tryin 2b mean lah,bt REALLY funny leh.bt evrytime i c him,i juz feel so emo

tat dae,i was runnin aft aaron,i juz wanted a fair game,no hlper,so i tell darien no nd him,den bout 5mins ltr he was "jealous",so he went off,den the innocent aaron tryin 2 pull him bck.wat kind of frewn iz tis,who dnt even trust the aaron.den aft tat we all emo liao.den i went home on same bus wif darien,was rainin HEAVILY!wah lau,so suay,den darien ask me 1 umbrella?i sae id rather wlk in der rain den tk yur umbrella,so i wlked SLOWLY,bloody hell,cum home ALL wet,bt so cool n nice der rain.

so i think aft tat inccident,aarons sorta avoidin me,god noes?i min we'r all juz frewns,playin,juz lik tat time darien play wit jerlyn,so wat? juz playin mah/only.sian i hate him

den 2dae went 2 hougang mall wit yah yah n jerlyn n nheimi n haresh n kaya n teng teng
...so fun!!ooops times up,gotta go,will try 2 catch up

bad dae

sianzzz,2dae,no mood rite,whole dae was RUINED by haresh.he cn cll me wateva he liks,BUT dun use physical!tats wat i hate!n tat idiot darien oso!!i hate dem!!!

im a total bitch(tryin 2 kip my bloody mouth shut)

i admit i was wrong 2 sae tat elton n jian kuo r failures in relationship,argh,REALLY REALLY shldnt hav sae tat,bt as u guys noe,i always speak wateva i lik without it processin my brain,i M tryin 2 change tis flaw of mine n i noe iz was harsh n totally wrong,god,i m so so sorry.bt even tat,he shldnt hav clled me a f bitch.juz wen i had overcomed,wanted 2 b bck 2 frewns wit elton,was sorta nt awkward liao,he has 2 hate me,sigh...

broke wit darien liao lik 2,3 wks ago.m a free gal now!i cn go aft wat i REALLY wan.juz wanna tell darien tat he'll find a gooder gal den me,,dun give up in relationships .i cnt blive jellyn n haresh broke,dunno if they'll eva get bck,bt i think 50-50 leh,bt it lks lik they bth dun lik each oth.

n den juz break camp 2dae.GB camp.wah lau,kena sunburn round my neck,all RED cn u blive it,so pain.n i feel so tired i juz wanna drop n sleep,yesterdae,me n priyah slept at 2,gotta wake at bout 7+,so sleepy,thurs oso.den yesterdae we played FEAR FACTOR,wah lau,we had 2 use only our ass 2 move along the mat,n on the mat iz full o f SOYA SAUCE,MASH BANANA..so we moved n were wearin pants so...all the sauce n banana went below into u noe where,n it was totally SICK,,eww..
went 2 bathe aft tat,den i i was 2 urgent, i peed in my pants, cn u blive it?argh..,i on da shower,n guessed wat happened?it could'nt wrk,nvm,more bad luck,i 4gt 2 bring my towel ,dammit,cnt cum out,so i was screamin away 4 priyah or any1 2 len me towel,mn finally.priyah len 2 me.i was lik thankuthanku!!!

den 2dae joycee,they'll so mean,coz u noe i was carryin tis green checkered giant bag,they kip sayin i goin 2 bintan ah ,den i was lik wateva lah,so i told evry1 bye,im goin 2 bintan,lik it was so lame.n durin da cheer,we were scremin our heads off,n den me desireen n jellyn gt da mad cow laughter dieases again,till we kena cll out 4 catwalk,in d end,change,we sae lame joke instead.

1---elton 2 nt hate me
2----kaya....
3-----jerlyn....
4------family
5-------studies
6---------get my oth half

- ----chingay.............

so dAmn angry 2 dae,juz coz i came bck late,my mum bloody smacked me up at 8 in da mornin n screamed at me 2 kNeel on da pebbles at d balcONy.bloody f her lah,feel lik cursin her,nt only did she do tat,i had tis thing tat was wit me for YRS wich had acompanied me wen i was sad or happy, n she juz tk n throw in da wallbin!damn her,n she said"so bold now har,cum bck late,who give u permission?i sae i will tk yur "privellage" rite?blah blah......den SUDDENLY,there came a "do u hav a bf?u btter nt hav or i'll chase u out of da house!n wen i sae it.i min it" blah blah wat eva

n u noe wat? SHE TAPES N RECORD ALL OUR CONVERSATION!i think so lah...coz she clled tis no.16095543205#* sumthin lik tat,dunno her lah,100% muz b lah.n i found tis 2 teddy bears wrapped up in roses n bouqets of flower,i TeLl u mUz b tAt gUy MARcus..n 2dae i logged in msn in her com acount while she was on da fone n i bloody 4gt 2 log off den i think kaya o9 n SHE tlked 2 kaya n kaya didnt noe who was it i dunno wat kaya said,i hope she didnt sae anythin bout guys...i REALLY hope,pray in lord's name

den i saw n peep in her fone inbox msgs while she was asleep. n there was tis msg--darlIn,y sO EaRlY?--dArLiN,gDnItE--BLOody hell of a basket,muz b frm tat marcus coz it was frm tis person name abcy n da no. was exactly da same as wat i found in her office plan,evrybody no. was there ,n it mtched a guy marcus lim

my dad came bck b4 xmas u noe n he didnt even cll,n lie 2 us sae he still in KL DOIN'BUISNESS' hahz.....n we r so pathetic thinkin he will cum bck......

ar there, cll liao juz ans her cll,tellin she at dunno wat chingay ar....aiyo SO many ppl,WE(MUZ B WIT MARCUS)....i,standin there in frnt gt family quarelllin,(hahz..i heard a guys laughter).......wateva

i ask her directly b4 u noe,but she said no,i dun unstd y she dun1 admit....goin 2 tell evry1 2 dun cll me 4 tis wk,mum gettin suspicious liao....haizzz...cnt go home wit him liao,coz any day my mun will juz cum suddenly n spot chck me....

ooh,n i had a nice valentine's.....tis elton ,he no wat he did n still sae,wat i do???wah lau,tis kind of ppl oso hav.m nt tlkin bout da msg f darien thingy iz bout he lik ...i dunno how sae lah anyway,u noe durin d drama thingy,HE try 2 team wit yah yah so tat i will act couple wit him!how dare he,i noe tis iz act only nt real but u noe diff ppl hav their reservations bout certain things n eg.me in tat case.den on stage liao,he ask yah yah 2 change role so he will b guy n i gurl,lau eh,buay tahan leh...he really ah........ARGHHH!!!!!!!!

ms loh change place 4 us,sian i 1 sit wif ham-i-gua!!!!!!!haizzz,bt nvm nadia oso cn ,as i sae,i m a veri kind person.able 2 get along wif EVRY1.....

last thursdae,made cake in home ec,in d end d egg spill onmy shoe,mixture was wrong,didnt c tat there was 2 set og utensils!!i m a g-u-n-d-u n a klutzz...haiya..n d cake turned out horid,on top was tis uneven surface n rock hard,ask keane hlp me pull out da grease paper coz i cnt tear n i try n it tored a little,den he peel liao,i saw below da cake-empty!heeheez!!den ta idiot aaron go mk my cake in2 paris hat,frisbee......si beh wu liao ,rock frisbee cake!!