saddddzzzz

thingz hav taken a thigs step further.now elton n darien n elton r ok liao.so i think,in termz of frewnship,iz ok. but oth ppl,they sayin tat i makin use of darien 2 gt rid of elton n blah blah.i dun bth dem lah.

den rahayu.......she WAS my best frewn but now,she saes i spend 2 much time wif jerlyn priya n hamidah n nt enough time wif her so rahayu now iz lik leavin me alone,evry time i try 2 tlk 2 her she juz saes,bitch shuddup,or ,cn u stop being so slutty.i tolerated her 2dae already u noe,she sae rite in frnt of evry1,loud n clear:u noe tis bloody jane,kip turnin bhind 2 tlk 2 her fuckin bf.wah lau,cnt tahan her liao u noe,,bt i juz sae nvm. den i JUZ chatted wif her over yahoo de msn,den we started off fine,nt untill d end den she she sae i hav no face,i ask her repeat again ,she said:PPL LIK U HAV NO FACE N NO SHAME.

den iz lik hurt me liao lorx,so i juz sign out lor,den she sen last 1 sae i dun dare face d truth,i noe i m sorrie,she's pissed off wif me over tat frewnship stuff,n juz coz i kip tlkin 2 aaron haresh n oth guys includin darien ,she lik EVEN more pissed off den lik i tell u ,start cllin me those names lah.i dunno wat 2 do ,really.i 1 frewnship n darien bt,she's juz forcin me 2 choosin 1 ,bt i dunno...i 1 bth those wrdz she use at me,ALL vulgarities............i feel lik so useless lor,iz lik ppl sae they cn control their mind n destiny n fate n blah blah,teavh me lah,evrythin i do iz juz nt rute,ppl always gt hurt,i dunnno,izit coz i dun think b4 i do thingzz....??n d WHOLE mornin of home ec,she juz kip usin vulgar at me duno wat darien tis darien tat,lau ehhh.....

den we went 2 d pertapis home,ok d children r cute,bt nt d smll malay boyz,wah lau,i NV do anythin 2 dem,dey go pull my shoelaces n cll me crazy,n they show middle finger summore,OMG.sianzzz....but d dancin was fun

sum1 juz tell me wat 2 do cn,sianzz,still waitin 4 mr kang reply........

fridae /2dae

fri was fine ....but i miss him so much.it has been since past 1 dae since i saw him. den tis kaya dowan pass msg,fine wateva lah.i cnt sms,call,msn.all cnt. aiyo i lik 1 2 die liao.den tis elton,i dunno wether he angry nt leh,iz lik if he REALLY lik me,den lemme go.stop wastin time.den tis haresh ask if we r happiie?lik?wah lau,we r in misery lahx.i really hope we cn b in peace lor.i mean i dowan darien 2 fallout wif dem lah.den i lik cnt do anythin 2 hlp him oso.n he's lk so sweet lah.

n i cnt bloody communicate wif ANY1 xcept 4 kaya in msg in yahoo,only,coz my bloody mum tk out d programme of msn.n she dun allow me 2 alter my GB dress ,i use MY $$ leh,i hate her lah.wah lau.den i email mr kang ,c if he cn hlp me nt.any1 tellme y tis kind of thing always happen??????y???

den u noe tis kaya,kip sayin jellyn,i noe iz me who nv fufil my promise,i try 2 ask u sit wif me,u sae u dowan 1 wat.tell me wat u 1 me 2 do?
i noe karen bckstab u ,wat u 1 me 2 do?i noe evry1 cnt stnd me lah,evrythin i do fails. relationship,familiy,frewnz,n wateva lah.

iz nt tat i dun lik darien,i lik him,lbt each time i dunno y bt i KIP thinkin tat they all includin yah yah darien elton haresh n jerlyn r lik trickin n lyin 2 me.i dunno y even thgh bi THINK tat i M wrong.bt i cnt stop havin thghts in mie mind. n den he thinks i dun lik him,i do,bt i cnt tell him NOW,i cn only on mon.i miss my dad..**sigh

omg!!!!!! aiyo my sis juz show me d strawberri milk , i put in freezer coz i 1 it cold faster,aiyooooo,bcum ICE liao........aghh

c?i cnt do anythin rite lah.kaya ,sit wif me on mon aft rec3ess k???dariennnnnnnnnnnn,tellme yur opinion cn nt?????????????i dowan 2 guess liao n ask liao lah.eltonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn u lettin us off nt,u angry nt?????????? i dUUNNO N I DUN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!d 2 of u tellme dun b upset n evrythin will b alrite.HOW???????????????????????????????????????????so com-pli-cat-ed!!!!

i dowan all these truble lahxxxxxx.lemme alone.i wan b lik d clouds ,eve so care frre nt restricted lik me 4 walls round me coz of my mum......

AHHH,ARGHHHHH

.......................11/1/08 get lost

2dae so sian,geo tcher was ramblin on n on bout da dunno wat population blah blah....den tat hamigua n jerlyn i noe they all 1 lah,CONCENTRATE 1 lor.yah yah .ok lah a little more chatty den dem.kaya oso lor.last tue or wed,sumthin amazin happened 2 me,my $$ n jelly n plaster kena stolen.tat bloddy thief DARed 2 actually denied it rite in front of me,wen i had a witness.INSISTIN tat she took 20cent ONLY a plaster.i juz feel lik swearin at her liao lor,bt i did'nt if nt tat mdm ng will sent me 2 councellin again n sae i gt anger management prob.

da prob iz nt bout wat she took ,iz tat she took liao n refuse 2 admit it.she noes i m nt veri rich coz i m raise by my mum only n she......i REALLY dunno wat she has gt against me n SHE was d 1 who i was referin 2 in d oth post,HYPOCRITE.she juz luvz 2 get those 'attention'.i admit i had nt wanted 2 mk frewnz wif clare or nt tlk 2 her at all,i noe i did sumthins 2 her.now i sincerly apologise, i'm sorry clare if i hav been mean 2 u.4give me thgh i noe iz hard.haix..............

new maid iz comin liao,i dunno,i juz feel ...........................i juz feel lik cryin,i noe i lk strong on d outside n ppl feel tat juz a maid isnt worth it but...n elton iz comin bck liao ,i dun care if he iz seein tis or nt,i juz wanna let him noe tat i dun lik him n he has/hasnt acept d fact.i REALLy hope he will juz leave me as i m ,i noe iz veri cruel ,he may sae i didnt consider his feelins n wateva btiz better 2 mk things clear NOW den let him suffer slow torture.....i juz dowanna hav tis label,haix..tell him so much he still dun undstnd coz he's nt me,he does'nt noe WAT iz it lik 2 b lik by sum1 u dun lik,n da whole wide world who noes it.iz tortures.........

tat marcus guy came n passed nie mum sum chocolate n goodies .said he went 2 HK .i mean he cum bck.wat it gotta do wif us?u noe wat i mean?unless.....i dunno

PS n btw witness is kaya aka SITI RAHAYU aka the vaccum sushi cleaner :)

holy crap

finally had a chance 2 use da com.hav so many things 2 sae lor. firstly was tat most horrid xmas i had.my maid went down 2 meet her frewn ,i told her 2 b bck in 15mins coz mie mum sure cll bck 1. nv listen wat i sae,mum cll bck,she nt at home,my granma sae she been out 4 more den an hr liao.den mum gt ANGRY ,VERI hot leh.flew strght home scream at us.wat eva lah dowan bth liao.no cake no nth sian.....

my mum ar,i think she gt anth guy liao lor.i ask her she sae no leh,wat crap man.i cn list thousandz of xamples n clue tat cn prove it lor.wat eva oso.
den we argued over da malay langguage course whether i shld go coz she sae iz wastin ma time.holy crap.in d end,she called cher n she encouraged my mum 2 lemme go.

den we argue bout anth thing .she INSIST tat tis reunion dinner tis yr eat at home,evry yr we at my father mother's house eat.so i argue lah,in d end wat happen?obviously i kena ask 2 SHUTTUP lah.

n den on da 2nd dae of sch,haha.sum1 called me sumthin,n she herself was lik a hypocrite lah.tis kind of ppl PATHETIC.she thinks she so smart veri cool.she think i nv hear wen she shouted frm da window,haha.wateva.

n den i gt so much 2 sae i cnt write out.i miss mie dad so much,aft 6 mths FINALLY,he cll ONCE!!!!!!!!! i was lik so happiie lah!!!!!!!bt he sae he will only b bck durin chinese New yr,wich iz coincidentally my burfdae.haix.......no cake all shops close mah........


bt sch WAS xcitin n fun lah,new studentz n chers. quite happiie lor.